So, while I’ve read a lot of stories, some of the more interesting ones being “non-professionals” discovering hidden or suppressed naughty urges through seemingly innocuous, anonymous , casual at first, interactions in social media, I have not seen such a viscerally true and accurate description of the tumult of feelings so generated in a “normal” everyday person who is already ensconced in what they believe is a long-term, loving, conceivably stable “safe” relationship with a partner or spouse as your story here.

It’s absolutely marvelous for a person to discover what they thought is a personal plight, perhaps even tinged with more than a wee bit of shame or guilt, is actually an emotional and psychological journey shared by what could well be MANY others. The ability to take the “alone” out of one person’s turmoil is a gift that sone people have through their open personalities as well as their willingness to show their vulnerabilities in a public forum because they believe, or even know, that others who have yet to speak up, or even realize that they share those humsn experiences with others.

You have that gift, I’m so glad your “Pandora’s Box” was opened; it’s truly a benefit to the rest of us.