I want to wean my two year old because I’m getting to that frustrated feeling— that ‘ok I need a breather if we are to have a fourth baby’ feeling.

I fed my second until 3 and because I was so emotionally torn, I became frustrated and that did not serve either of us. I vowed to be more disciplined when I reached ‘that point’ with my third child.

Funnily, I was amazing at it with my first! Weaning was easy and no fuss, 18 months.

It’s because I was clear. I wasn’t going to and fro internally. She felt it and felt peace and comfort in my conviction.

Our kids need that in us. When we are wobbly, they are.

Truth is though I AM a little torn. I want to wean her but I also love love love that when she snuggles into my body and boob she exhales as if to say ‘mmm. My home.’

It is the most beautiful thing ever. I’m wondering if maybe a fourth pregnancy is needed to help us wean, or if I’m actually not really ‘at my point’ yet…. But yielding to the subtle influences of modern culture.

In nature, we’re actually designed to feed, then stop when we get pregnant again after 2/3 years and continue like this. My friend once told me that we’re actually only meant to have a handful of periods, but modern culture has meant that we ‘get back into it’ and don’t rest fully into it like our original nature expected. Take that as you wish but it’s interesting to think about.

I don’t have the answers. just sharing xx