tears still drying in my eyes from the frustration of dealing with the insurance / hospital billing company, which offers no real ‘satisfaction’ for my pain and suffering, but charges me handsomely for it. My paycheck to paycheck dilemma shows me that my desire to be out of the debt hole is a chimera. The next moment I’m reading your post, reminding me of the Buddha and the ‘nothing is’ — feeling foolish for the degree of my emotions, especially those I spat at the hapless billing department phone girl. ha. regret. failure. embarrassment. all wash over me, as I let that damn insurance bill ‘get to me’! This too shall pass. What is out my window now, is the breeze playing a song on the leaves of the maple tree, the bird songs. Those things, they do seem eternal, relative to my stupid plight. Thanks. Just these little reminders… help interrupt the self flagellation of anger and fear. A few deep breaths and I can blow them off my hands. TY