“On the outside, you see, all looked fine. I was employed by a tony college. I had published widely across the genres, won Guggenheim, Fulbright, and Rockefeller Foundation fellowships, and been a Pulitzer finalist…Inside, I was a total mess—quick to anger, contentious, arrogant, but full of such self-loathing I had trouble looking in the mirror.” - Sydney Lea, who inspired this series, takes the Sober Oldster Questionnaire, Oldster Magazine’s collaboration with The Small Bow. With thanks as always to A.J. Daulerio for the collab, and Edith Zimmerman for another great illustration.