Twenty years ago I spent three years writing a book I loved. When it was finally published, I fell into the deepest depression I'd ever experienced.

It took me a long to to understand why. In short, I was looking for something publishing was never going to give me.

I wrote about this experience in my latest essay. (The photo makes sense once you understand the book!)

If you've ever felt a little lost after publishing something that mattered to you...I see you.