its my 22nd birthday. this number has always haunted me (222... iykyk) and it falls on a tuesday. the second day. lizards. venus. the colour orange. i don’t know why these things feel connected but they do. i’ve been collecting all these signs and associations and whatnot for years without ever questioning them. and now they feel too real to get rid of. as eerie as it sounds, i turned 22. yes. it feels like i’ve aligned myself with something i wasn’t supposed to. mind me, the paranoia is going hard.