I know this is the best choice, and it is the one I am pre-committing to (I have my immigration lawyer's number ready to go). The fucked up part for me is that I'm a combat veteran with C-PTSD and every ounce of my prefrontal cortex and right amygdala are going to be pushing me into "protect mode" if something like this were ever to occur. We all know what we'd like to do in theory when we're not in the heat of a moment with milliseconds to make a decision, but we don't ever know how we're actually going to react until we're in the moment itself. That's the kind of shit I worry about in my personal case.