perhaps this is one of my biggest struggles - i am scared to be in pictures (literally and metaphorically) because i am scared that i look different in another’s eyes. and i think there is fear because when people disappear from my life, i never know why. i wonder if i could see the flaws that caused them to go in the photographs so i don’t look at the photographs. but i’m getting better at realizing motion is a universal constant and some people leave for other reasons than not wanting to stay.