I thought I’d done enough to dismantle the shameful and debilitating thoughts and emotions I carried about not feeling welcome in the world. From being left-handed to maturing early to living in a bigger body, there were multiple reasons I created this story for myself. A recent experience showed me those feelings hadn’t actually died; they were just in need of oxygen.
Thank you for sharing your story. I related to so much of it, especially growing up and feeling larger than everyone else. I have some specific memories like you that were triggering, but when I look back at photos now, I don’t see a body that was all that different. Still, I spent most of my life trying to shrink myself to an “ acceptable” size.
Thank you for sharing your story. I related to so much of it, especially growing up and feeling larger than everyone else. I have some specific memories like you that were triggering, but when I look back at photos now, I don’t see a body that was all that different. Still, I spent most of my life trying to shrink myself to an “ acceptable” size.
I’m sorry you had all of these harmful experiences. ❤️