I'm in Siena on this Spring morning, far from home, but also in a place that feels like a sort of home. 30 years ago, after our son died and we didn't know how to go on, we came to this beautiful country, this beautiful city. Shortly after, back in our "normal" home, we found Andrea Bocelli and his extraordinary album Romanza. It was the first music we could bear to listen to after our son's death, and we listened to it over and over.
Last night while sipping a glass of wine, I pulled the album up on my phone and played it on our little portable speaker. When the song "Rapsodia" started, we both stilled, transported, brought to new tears, brought back to that time, brought closer to the grief that will always be in our hearts, and to the love.
"Tu, cosi' lontana, seppure ormai cosi' vicino. E l'anima se ne va verso l'eternita''."
Music is both balm to our wounds and a visceral reminder of them. The other beloved Italian singer-- and also song writer/poet-- who has accompanied me during these years is Gianmaria Testa. I am grateful to them both, and to many other musicians (shoutout especially to Leonard Cohen and Nick Cave).
And I'm grateful to so many poets, including Padraig, and to this Sunday morning community.