I really gotta go study for my physics exam- but i wanted to say : i hear, i hear you, i hear you. I have eczema. And it’s basically like acne, but for me, it breaks out on my hands. So you can probably imagine how embarrassed/insecure i feel sometimes when writing or handling things in front of others. Aside from the actual pain especially during summer. i also tend to have sweaty palms lol.( ummm not helping ) I’ve had it for yearsssss, but now it’s much much better alhamdulillah. Still, it’s not the easiest thing, especially because not just dairy, but most foods actually, tend to cause the break out. And a million other things such as hormones. Now i don’t go to the dermatologists anymore. I know when it gets the worst : during my exams. Also when i stay up late. But i have a little golden savior: aloe gel. I got it as a gift from an aunt a few years back- and it turned out to be exactly the thing i needed, because when i’m in pain, i don’t need more pain ( aka the ointments and creams docs prescribed for me ) , i need relief. And omg Alhamdulillah it works and it helped me so so much. I’m so grateful to have come across it. I would be crying in pain every time it broke out. Alhamdulillah😭😭❤️
Tbh i have no idea why i said all of this info this is not what i wanted to say.
I wanted to say : sometimes the people who we would expect to cherish us the most, show us love unconditionally the most, don’t. And that hurts. Really hurts.
And i’m so grateful you’ve come to realise that people don’t see you the way your father do. Because believe me, mine would see all my flaws, would doubt me, but Allah blessed me with people in my life whom i would call golden, and i’m lucky enough to have them call me that too. They showed me that i deserve love, no matter my condition. No matter how “ not put together “ i feel.
The best thing i did for myself, i think, was to take back to the power i gave to him over me. The emotional, mental power. I think of it as putting my worth in my own pockets. It doesn’t depend on my grades, and it doesn’t depend on how you see me because it’s very much your choice no matter what i do or don’t.
God i wanna hug you so so bad girl🥹❤️❤️
And i know we’re both strangers on this corner of the internet, but i wish i could have been there for you all those times, sis.
you’re so lovely, and so sweet.
I loved the part about noor so so much 🥹🥹💗💗💗💗💗 It’s beautiful. So beautiful.💗
Also, Kudos for embarking on the no-makeup journey… that’s very brave. And i’ve found that it’s very freeing ughhh. It’s like i’m telling my brain each time i do : “ hey, we can simply exist as we are, you know. No need to fix anything.” And honestly? That kind of inner sturdiness in learning to be comfy in your own skin? It’s peace.
I love you so much, girl.❤️ would like to know, what’s your favorite icecream flavor?
